Our Engagement Day

We are officially engaged! can you believe i'm actually a step closer to getting married. hehe. engagement is not part of our plan. memang me and Ayman plan nak nikah terus, but i guess its true kita hanya merancang, tapi Allah yang tentukan. next year i'll be Ayman's wife. InsyaAllah.. and there are just too many feelings in my heart everyday. so excited to start a brand new chapter with my chosen man. we've both been dreaming of this moment, loving each other and pray that God will bless our relationship. i really can't wait to come home to each other and seeing his face everyday when i wake up :D *sila berenti berangan. setahun lagi!* 

ok back to my engagement day. 24th August 2013. its was a very beautiful day. (actually i kept praying 'jangan la hujan, pls jangan hujan' all night) nasib baik tak hujan. I'm glad that the ceremony went perfectly and as smooth as planned. thanks to my family. 

i was so relieved its over (and went well). Alhamdulillah. so now i can focus on my wedding preparation. can i start acting like a bridezilla now :p

Merisik

yesterday 22nd June 2013 is my merisik day. after more than 3 years I kawan dengan Ayman semalam first time my mum jumpa dengan parents dia. Nervous tak payahlah cakap. dengan my mum sekali tak bole tido malam. hehe. gelabah tak pasal-pasal. Alhamdulillah everything went well. just a simple discussion. diorang banyak borak pasal benda lain pulak *_*

im so happy.. but my mum asyik nangis sampai orang semua dah balik tak habis nangis lagi. belum apa-apa lagi cane nak kawin ni. hehe.. and zety pun dan2 tu la nak berkepit je. such a drama queen!

thanks for the cake Kak Emma! 

My starlight ring :) 

Engagement dress

sangat penat memikirkan dress.. when i went to bandung memang dah plan nak cari kain untuk engagement. and i want tiffany blue for my theme. bila sampai bandung the first thing yang we all buat ialah tempah invitation. mama la tak sabar-sabar pg tempah color tiffany blue. thn after tempah invitation baru pergi cari kain. problem nya satu bandung pusing tak jumpa color tiffany blue. kalau ada pun tak cantik. nak tukar color tak boleh pulak sebab invitation dah tempah. sebab geram sangat i pun beli je la color yang lebih kurang. dekat bandung kain mmg la murah gila. sangat murah! boleh jadi gila. my kain tunang, lace, chiffon and satin plus kain baju melayu ayman semua sekali tak sampai rm 1000. murah kan. the color is something like turquoise and teal. memang sedih tapi tak pa la tu je yang ada. 

when we get here mama perasan yang i macam tak suka color tu. ok mama knows everything, can't hide from her. huhu. i love you mama. thn dia bawak i pergi jakel and gulatis cari kain. ada la tiffany blue tapi tak cantik pulak. the lace kurang menarik ada yang cantik too much beads pulak. ada yang cantik dekat jakel rm 1600 satu meter and i need at least two meters. fine over my budget! so dengan sedihnya redha je la dengan kain yang ada. padan muka cari color susah-susah lagi. 

ok next part. designer. mencari designer pun bukan senang. i like Jovian tapi mimpi la harga dia. i went to mimpi kita tapi diorang nak kena guna their own material. sedih :( lepas tu i set appointment with Syomir Izwa. and one night my cousin datang rumah. we start borak-borak about designer. she said kau kenal tak Rico Rinaldi. and i was like who is that?? never heard of him.. thn kitrg pun google. bukak je bridal campaign dia boom! terus jatuh cinta. this is Rico's website RICO RINALDI besok jugak call dia and buat appointment. he is a very nice guy. lembut je. but he said sorry my chiffon tak cukup. sebab i beli 3 meters je and he need 8 meters. arrghh! duit lagi. and i got an idea alang-alang nak kena beli lagi why don't i tukar je color chiffon tapi maintain lace yang dah ada tu. so i pergi jakel bought tiffany blue chiffon. kain baju melayu ayman pun kena tukar la jugak tiffany blue. tak tau la jadi apa dah my dress and our theme color. rojak kot. hehe. 

rico cakap lain kali kalau untuk wedding ke jangan pandai-pandai pergi cari kain sendiri. bawak designer sekali or biar designer je cari kain. fine for my wedding i leave all to you ye. insyaAllah :) dia cakap jauh-jauh cari kain tapi kain sedih jugak. dia cakap kain i sedih! sedih!

but i have faith in Rico. the last thing i told him Rico please buat i nampak kurus. so worried about my weight dah la engagement tu time raya. memang makan je la. tapi Rico cakap eh your cutting dah okay la. ehem ehem pandai ambik hati. this coming 29 june is my first fitting. can't wait to see the dress! 

When he proposed I said yes!

finally we are getting engaged. Insya'allah in August. I'm excited can you tell. Theme color maybe tiffany blue and white. i bought  kain dkt bandung last week. tapi tak hantar tempah lagi. i want everything to be simple and sweet. i read somewhere that engagement should be simple, save all the drama for your wedding. so the keyword is SIMPLE

i should start preparing now. tapi tak tau nak mula dari mana. dah la busy with assignments. insya'allah if everything goes according to plan next semester i will start my internship. Slowly but surely. pray for me :) 

Thank you love

Often I tell you how deeply I love you,
though I don’t tell you often enough
how thankful I am for you

I thank you for your love,
your friendship, your kindness

I thank you for making me smile,
for being there when I need someone

I thank you for your support,
your strength, for all you give to me

I thank you for the laughter,
the memories, the quiet times together,
the heart to heart talks

I thank you for making each day special,
if not more special than the day before

I thank you for every moment,
every second that you’ve been a part of my life

I thank you for sharing yourself with me
I thank you for loving and giving unconditionally

And if tomorrow I wake to find,
there will be no more days with you
I’ll thank you for all you’ve left behind,
that will help to carry me through.

I thank you for yesterday,
today and tomorrow.
I love you without end;
Your the love of my life
and a special friend.

watching him sleeping..

waking up in the morning and watching him sleeping is one of the most mesmerizing and pleasant experience. he looks so tender, peaceful and calm and his soft snores is the most beautiful melody ever. When he is sleeping I find him more attractive than usual. I even feel luckier to have him in my life..

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My Heart

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miss you~

today is ramadhan again

today has been 10 months

but it only seems like yesterday

that you left me.

i made the promise not to leave you 

and to stay by your side.

i was just tired 

i need to close my eyes

i went to take a nap because the days just passed

i only slept a bit so i could stay at your side

when the call came to get back there

i came as fast as i could 

only to find that you had left me

to this day i regret that i left your side

because, i promised that i wouldn't leave your side.

i didn't get to say goodbye

but i did tell you i love you before i left

i miss you and i need you

i know i have to let you go 

so you could rest in peace

you're in a better place

sitting next to lord 

where you once said 

you were ready to take your place 

next to the lord in heavenly grace

you said "miss me but let me go for i have fulfilled my journey here on earth"

lord is taking you to start a new journey. 

i think of you everyday

its so hard not to cry 

i know i will be okay

because i feel you near by

rest in peace for i will see you soon

God bless me with a grandfather like you..
i miss you.. 

that's my man!

so I found this awesome app. And I installed it on my galaxy note. It's called 30 day relationship challenge. you have to do all the activity listed within 30 days. And see how your partner react. This app main goal is to put the spark back in your relationship. And to show your partner how much you love them. Well at least that's what written in the description :p

i think its cool, so tanpa melengahkan masa i cuba buat day 1 challenge.

EPIC FAIL! 

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Bahagianya mereka..

thank you for your time

THE GREATEST GIFT YOU CAN 

GIVE TO SOMEONE IS YOUR TIME. 

ITS LIKE GIVING A PORTION 

OF YOUR LIFE 

THAT YOU CAN NEVER BRING BACK. 

:)

I didn't know I was looking for love, until I saw u..


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Im sorry

dear sayang,

you cannot possibly imagine it. you cannot possibly imagine what difference you have done to my life. i honestly don't think you know, but you alone have change everything about me, about what i think and how i act. i never told you before but its true, when i think about my life, the dividing point is when i meet you. for me, the is life before i meet you and after. you are the most important person in my life and everything i do, i do with you in my mind. thinking about how it will affect you and what will you say about it. whatever happens, whatever the future brings nobody knows. but, what i do know is that i will always always love you and nothing will ever change that. a smile from you will make my heart smile for the rest of the day. I'm sorry.. i miss you.

love, 

me

They called it opposite attraction

they didn't agree on many things. 

in fact, they rarely agreed on anything. 

they fought all the time 

& they challenged each other everyday

 but in spite their differences,

they had one important thing in common. 

they were crazy about each other ♡

in the mood for love..

*not going to talk about wong kar wai's in the mood for love film*

hello beautiful people.. how are you. I've been so busy lately. no time to update my blog. my life has been turned upside down, thanks to all the assignments, datelines. *thanks but no thanks!* sometimes i feel like i want to quit my study :( malas btl! kerja sangat banyak! alangkah bestnya jadi undergraduate student. degree sgt senang n sgt enjoy. plus kerja kat office time ni la nak bertimbun2! i have no time to go lepak2. time for my boyfriend pun sgt limited. poor him. tapi padan muka. sibuk sgt suruh i further study. 

talking about him.. he's been super nice lately. tak tau la kenapa. bagi pocket money every time jumpa, siap bagi atm card lagi! tak pernah2 ok.. talking about marriage. marriage?? :D (yes we are ready! tapi.. :( financial je blm ready) and that day tiba2 tanya brand cincin yg i nak. org kata kalau tiba2 jadi baik ni maybe he's hiding something. OMG! NO! or may he is in the mood for love. maybe. nak tanya sendiri why he's acting so weird, takut plk. huhu. dah la tu skrg ni tak gaduh langsung. x best plk x thrill. hehe. tak pa la. layan kan aje. bagus jugak kan :P tapi he keeps complaining about my weight! ish benci! but the truth is me also menyampah with my body now. have u ever feel looking in the mirror and then you feel so uncomfortable with your body? thats how i feel now :( I'm 50kg! need to lose another 5kg. jeans pun semua dah x muat! tapi skrg asik lapar je. don't know why. malam2 pun rasa nak makan nasi. cane la nak kurus. haih. and petang2 pulak hujan. cannot do outdoor activity. i guess i have to go to the gym balik la. poor me. tsk..tsk..

ok la enough of the mumbling. need to prepare for my presentation next week. *sigh* happy sunday people. in love and light. XX 

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend..

don’t mind how lame/gushy/annoying I’m about to sound but I honestly have never felt this way about a person. I’ve been with my boyfriend for 24 months now and you’d think that after so long our feelings for each other would die out but they haven’t at all. I still feel the same way  I did two years ago when we first started dating. He’s funny, cute, sexy, adorable, everything i want in a guy. He’s the kind of person that i can act completely goofy and socially unacceptable with and he’ll be right next to me doing the same thing. so many bad things are happening around me that it’s made me realize how lucky I am to have him in my life and to be in love. I know I sound stupid and cliche but I really don’t care. He’s my best friend, my boyfriend and my idea of perfection. yes we fight some times, but we always work our way through it. Sorry for all the gooey love stuff i just threw out at whoever is reading this i just needed somewhere to pour my heart out cause right now my emotions are so overwhelming... :)

Happy 2nd Anniversary

Love Story

my favorite song from my favorite movie Love Story and my favorite set of pictures combined! obviously i have nothing to do and i cant sleep.. so i made this video.. and i miss him so much. :(

Where do I begin to tell the story
Of how great a love can be
The sweet love story that is older than the sea
The simple truth about the love she brings to me
Where do I start

With her first hello
She gave a meaning to this empty world of mine
There'd never be another love another time
She came into my life and made the living fine
She fills my heart

She fills my heart
with very special things
With angel songs, with wild imaginings
She fills my soul with so much love
That any where I go
I'm never lonely
With her along who could be lonely
I reach for her hand. It’s always there

How long does it last
Can love be measured by the hours in a day
I have no answers now but this much I can say
I know I'll need her until the stars all burn away
And she'll be there..

WHEN

When tears never fall, and birds never fly.
Winter never ends, and children never cry.
When the nights are not dark, and the days are not light.
When forever does finally end, and the eyes have no sight.
When ears cannot hear, and the grass never grows.
When silence is too loud, and the genius never knows.
When strength doesn't strengthen, and flowers never bloom.
When hearts can't be broken, and eternity is too soon.
When the wind never blows, and the rain is never wet.
When thunder can't be heard, and the sun refuses to set.
When angels don't protect, and a fact is not true.
When life can't be lived, and the sky is not blue.
When the truth is a lie, and the fake becomes so real.
The clock shows no time, and wounds never heal.
When enjoyment isn't fun, and bells cannot ring.
When a race cannot be won, and a singer cannot sing.
When pain does not hurt, and enemies never fight.
When rainbows have no color, and something wrong seems so right.
When all these things finally happen, when they finally come true.
That's when I, without a doubt, will stop loving you.

Thankful

im a so thankful and blessed to have you both in my life..